These days, any thing trivial can tick me off. I do not fly off the handle. But I voice my displeasure and opinions unsparingly. In the past, I would have swallowed my thoughts and let it pass. So this may come as a shock to whoever's on the receiving end.
Perhaps it is part of ageing - my patience and tolerance have just worn unbelievably thin in the process. Or perhaps it is unhappiness in general that has resulted in this change.
Some may say it is a good thing - to speak up for what you believe in or to accept no nonsense from no one. Probably. But it is such a fine line to cross - you could become rude, arrogant and impossible to be around. The moment the words come out of your mouth, you feel self-righteous and justified and think "Yes! I finally stood up for myself!". But never underestimate the bitter taste that may haunt you after - the guilt, the shame, the look on the other person's face, the awkward silence, the ringing in your head "Maybe I shouldn't have said that" and hardest of all, the initiative to mend and patch.
Whatever it is, I do not like the person I have become. I hope this is just a passing phase. And if it is, please let it pass soon.
These days, any thing trivial can tick me off. I do not fly off the handle. But I voice my displeasure and opinions unsparingly. In the past, I would have swallowed my thoughts and let it pass. So this may come as a shock to whoever's on the receiving end. 
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