May Day

Time flies - it is already May. In another 2 months' time, half of 2009 will have passed. But it seemed only yesterday that we welcomed the beginning of a new year.

It sometimes worries me that time passes so quickly. Too quick for one to grasp the reality of it all. "Is carpe diem even possible?", I wonder. Maybe it is. But easier said than done. Before I could seize it, the day has already passed.

2 months ago, I returned to this tiny island. Every day since then had been spent rebuilding the pieces. Harder than I thought, I realised. More time needed, I figured. Greater effort to put in, I believe. 

At times I question if I could do this alone. A shoulder to lean on would be welcomed. Because to do it alone has proved to be utmost draining. No longer do I have the strength to put on a brave front. No longer do I wish to face the unknown alone. I need to break down. I need to crumble. And I need a pair of strong arms to catch me when I fall.